February 6, 2017

playing the feeld

I occur to people as impassioned, fearless, self-possessed. It can be off-putting that I insist on being comfortable, or that I refuse to engage small talk, subtle one-upmanship, or social shaming. I can be warm, friendly, open - it completely depends. I am nothing if not decisive, and I do well in situations of uncertainty.

You are earnest and polite, accommodating, emotionally generous. We appeal to different types of people, and yet - upon meeting, we are already trading barbs. You are secretly sarcastic, coming up for air - partially glad, partially disbelieving. It annoys you that I seem to be free from conventional strictures, but that annoyance is subsumed by your eagerness to please. You're intimidated by me, or rather, by your level of attraction to me and what that means for you.

Witty banter falls away to a dizzying array of emotional disclosures. You wonder how we've gotten so close, so fast. Along with intimacy comes a whole set of demands - what to say to me, how to say it, what not to say. You're coming up for air in a whole different way, and you're not sure if you like it. Soon you realize that I'm just testing you, and what you say doesn't matter as much as what you do.

You've learned by now to be there, to be responsive, to play when I want to play and to be serious when I want it. I am emotional, and I am touch-based, and you are learning all of my cues, and I'm learning to trust you, and you are holding me in place, and you are giving it to me, over and over. I am not asking for much at all, not any more than the next person, I only had to ask in a different way and now you get it. I've taught you everything about me and you'd be damned to ever let me go.

I am a Switch, which is to say that I am both Dominant and Submissive, your goddess and your baby girl. I am also demisexual, which means that the more emotionally intimate we are, the more I will want you. I insist on wanting you so much that we won't be able to help but worship each other.

You have no aversions to the following: pubic hair, cunnilingus, menstrual blood, anal play (done to you), and guy-on-guy interaction (done to you, by you, or around you). It doesn't mean we will ever engage in any of these things - but a commitment to openness and flexibility is paramount.

As a general human, I cook, write, dance, read, paint, play piano, and work on staying active in the community & engaged with the world. This is not a laundry list of interests - I was taught little or none of these things and have claimed it for myself. I expect you to have similar passions - even if for different subjects - and that you're building and sharing with others.

If I sound like your cup of tea, message me and let's have one.