My current phase of grief puts everything I thought was grief to shame. Which is to say, I'm sobbing more often than I ever have, although so far they are like little tropical storms that come on quickly and then abruptly clear.
What I've found is that most of the sobs center around a single line/thought/concept, so I thought I'd document them going forward:
- "why is this happening to me"
- experiencing mommy energy from someone
- experiencing daddy energy from someone
- "at least I got to be more myself" (what happens in true love)
- articles about mothers losing children
- someone saying "I love you and you're doing great"
- realizing trauma is the barrier that prevents love from getting through even though it exists